Recovery Ninja Rach: I was inspired to write this piece after hearing of a friend’s struggle with being a healthy weight due to people posting triggering photos. I’m here to remind you why it’s great to be recovered and healthy.
What you can do when healthy:
Have comfortable baths without your bones sticking out in your back and bum;
Sit down comfortably;
Get on buses, trains, planes, metros etc - when I was severely anorexic I was not allowed to use public transport (*I was an outpatient due to lack of beds so was on bed rest and the like at home);
Have a job;
Go to school, college and university;
Go on holiday;
Jump, skip, run, walk, cycle, dance, swim, play sports;
Do courses or work experience or volunteering;
Be a positive role model;
Hold a conversation;
Not eat to a timetable or have someone tell you how much you have to eat;
Be trusted on your own (When I was sick, my mother couldn’t leave me in case I made myself sick, self-harmed, overexercised or tried to kill myself);
Be able to have children;
Clothes look good on curves. I love the fact that sometimes my boobs are too big to fit into some clothes!
Dance and go out in clubs/pubs/restaurants;
Stand up for long periods of time;
Go to concerts and gigs;
Wear a bikini and not think people are looking at you;
Be trusted to go to the bathroom on your own;
Have a shower without the possibilty of fainting or your parents/the doctors worried you’ll make yourself sick or hurt yourself;
Be alive. And that’s the important part. Being recovered means being alive. It means you can enjoy life and do whatever you set your mind to. I will always choose recovery and I will always raise awareness about eating disorders. I’m a survivor and you are too.